Wednesday 7 December, 2011
Affirmation
Tuesday 30 August, 2011
Saturday 2 April, 2011
Before the dawn
Quarter to four in the morning
Stillness of the night
Disturbed sleep
A cigarette burns
The guitar strums
Torturous memories
Whiplash against the soul
Smile
“I am not him any more”
Sunday 4 July, 2010
The yagya
Wednesday 3 February, 2010
Myriad of Images
The mind wanders. It is filled with a myriad of images.
It struggles. Fights with itself and tries to shake of a gnawing perception but something deep, fine and pure keeps pulling it back. It tugs at the soul and shows an image.
A dazzlingly bright image. The image makes you want to instinctively shut your eyes for a mont. But the brightness also carries a certain warmth. As the eyes grow slightly more accustomed to this bright light, the heart (hitherto undecided) now decides to take a leap of faith and with a silent prayer on its lips and sharp intake of breath just lets go...
Down, down, down the rabbi hole.
As one plunges further and further down, the sounds of various passions become more distant, a sound belonging to a distant world.
~silence~
Om.
Sunday 4 January, 2009
Saturday 15 November, 2008
Baby
Deathly silence.
Noises of the world fade into the background.
All that he could hear was his own laboured breathing.
He could not stop the smile which silently crept up on him.
I am alone.
Again.
Finally.
I am alone.
His mind fell down the rabbit-hole that Alice knew so well.
And like a flash of cards, images swept by his mind's eye...
Quiet birthday celebrations...
Mahatma Gandhi...
His old house...
The stories that Shivaji's mother used to tell him when he was a child...
Ramayan...
Mahabharat...
His first job...
Inexplicable joys in the simplest of veg. rolls on Park Street...
JRD Tata...
Durga Puja...
Relationships...
Break-ups...
Scheming relatives...
...and as he continued falling down the rabbit-hole, he felt a sense of relief, that perhaps at the bottom of this hole all his thoughts would end.
Finally, he hit the ground.
No images, no sounds.
Just a monotonic humming... perhaps it was the air-conditioner.
His mind seemed to have gone as silent as the enclosed world around him.
He smiled once again at the thought of a dark, quiet world.
I'm in a womb once again and I can suspend reality for the time being... at least.
He smiled one last time before drifting off.
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Doctor: What's the report on bed no. 3?
Nurse: I've given him a strong dose of sedatives like you advised. He mumbled incoherently for a while, but is resting now.
Doctor: Do you think he'll sleep well?
Nurse: (Smiles) Like a baby.